When I went to the women's fall tea at church a few months ago, one of the sweetest ladies shared her testimony and spoke about how she has seen the hand of God throughout her life. So, I wanted to take a moment here and tell you how I've been seeing God work throughout this past year. I think it's important to look back and see how you've made it through the good and the hard times with the Lord's help.
When God called us to adopt from Africa, we weren't certain exactly where the money would come from to pay it, but He provided a supplemental income through my TpT store that has covered our expenses. It has also relieved us from worrying about me being away from work and paying the hospital bills. I can see the hand of God.
This summer some of my responsibilities at work were lightened, and at the moment this control freak couldn't understand why. I mean, I can do it all, right? Now, I am thankful for the lightened load and that God relieved me from worrying about different responsibilities while I'm out of work for a few months. I can see the hand of God.
When I was rushed to the ER in September, not having a clue as to what was going on, we had the BEST hospital care ever, along with a number of nurses from Forney that were there to lend a helping hand. I can see the hand of God.
I couldn't understand why our little girl wasn't here yet. I thought she'd be here in September. Now I know that God wants me to be healthy for my little girl, and His timing is perfect. I can see the hand of God.
Then, I thought Jared would be traveling to Africa on Monday, December 10th, which is the date of my surgery. How will we make this work? Do we make J stay in Africa just because I need surgery? We want her here so badly. Right after our doctor's appointment we got an email from our adoption agency that it would be closer to January when Jared could travel. God took that tough decision from us. I can see the hand of God.
I have been planning for months for my maternity leave at work... making lesson plans, copying activity after activity. I had things planned up until March (just in case). Then, all of a sudden I only had a 3 days notice that I would be out for surgery. The plans at school were already done, I didn't even have to worry about it. I can see the hand of God.
When I have my emotional breakdowns because I just can't understand what's going on, and why... I have a husband who remains calm and at peace with God's plan. He takes care of the tough stuff... talking to doctors, making the plans, taking care of the little details when I'm just incapable of being level-headed. I can see the hand of God. Jared even made sure that I got to take part in our annual visit to the Gaylord AND he scheduled me a massage for this morning. I needed a weekend of fun, friends, good food, and relaxation after the week that I had!
I really could go on and on and on. God has used our adoption and my teaching blog to open us up to a world of prayer warriors. I am so thankful that I can count on people that I see day after day, to those that I've never even met to pray for our family.
So, as I go into surgery on Monday, December 10th around noon, I just want you to know that I can already see God's hand in my life. I may not understand His plan, but I do know He is in control. I have no doubt about that. Am I scared? Yes, I am terrified. But, in those moments that I feel terrified, I also feel the comfort from a God that comforts like no other.