Alrighty y'all, I'm here for a little update from the appointment we had today. We went to a doctor who came HIGHLY recommended by a family at church. He is actually the Chief of Neurosurgery at Baylor in Dallas and is Matt Chandler's neurosurgeon. This was a total God thing because we have a lady from church who works for Dr. Barnett, and she got us into see him which can be impossible if left on your own! One other way we know that God is in total control and always faithful!
I wish I could tell you that we went in today and the blood was gone! BUT, we didn't actually have any new scans or tests done. He took a look at the scans we had last week and actually set down with us to go through them. Boy, was that helpful! He did an amazing job of calmly explaining the ins and outs of the bleed and the underlying cause.
Here's what's going on, in my words of course! I have a cavernous malformation which I *think* means that I have a cluster of blood vessels that are abnormal. More than likely I have had these from birth, and last week there was an acute hemotoma (which is a fancy way of saying that I have a bleed in my brain). There wasn't anything in particular that made these vessels bleed last week, but pretty much it was just bound to happen.
So, what does all this mean? We still have to wait until December for our next MRI to make 100% sure this is what is going on. There is still a chance that once the blood has absorbed it could reveal a different issue. But, he seemed pretty certain that this was the underlying cause.
Could it bleed again? Absolutely, and if left alone it more than likely will in the next year or so. Because I am 27 and it has already bled, it will probably bleed again... boo! But, it shouldn't in the next few months (which we are really praying for so that we can get a good scan).
Unfortunately, I will probably have to have a surgery to remove the cavernous malformation. We are not 100% sure about this, but once we get the new MRI, we will weigh the risks and advantages of leaving it alone or removing it completely. Luckily, the abnormal cavernous is on the surface of my brain, it's not deep inside... so that's a blessing!
As for me, I am taking the next few days off of work (doctor recommended) not because I am feeling bad or in pain, just because he wants me to rest after last week. He wanted to reiterate that although this isn't necessarily life threatening, it is a big deal and we don't need to take it lightly. So, I'm going to listen to the smart man, and lay low the next few days! After all, he is the man in charge of my brains now, ha!
I am really beginning to feel a peace about this whole situation. The thought of brain surgery does scare me, but the thought of living with a brain issue scares me even more. I am beginning to see how God is working and has already prepared so much for this time in our lives. And, I know that the peace I am feeling is only coming from Him.
One last thing... as of right now, it looks like I will not be able to travel to Africa to pick up our sweet girl with Jared. I don't really want to get into all of the details right now or how it makes me feel because you can only imagine. I am fully having to put my faith and trust in God because left on my own I would be an emotional wreck. BUT, I've had 2 pretty smart doctors tell me that they would not want me anywhere near a hospital in Africa if something were to happen. So, if you get a chance, please pray that God will give me a complete peace about this and that He will guide us during this last part of our adoption. I know that His plan has always been better than mine anyways!
I think that's it as far as the updates go. This doctor visit made me feel quite a bit more at ease because he told me there's no need to stress everyday about having a re-bleed, and that it's nothing to lose sleep over. I still need to take it easy on physical strain, but after I've rested for about a week, I should be able to continue living a normal life!
I can't say thank you enough for your prayers. Jared and I are blessed beyond belief and we are truly feeling the love and support that you are all sending our way!